can't you see that you're smothering me holding too tightly afraid to lose control

People these days are pretty dramatic when it comes to shitty situations, like omg i hate my life, omg worst thing ever.. and im very guily of it.. but i can honestly say ive just had the worst night of my entire life. He came over to work things out, not only did we not work things out, i heard him bitch at me for 4 hours about everything. Maybe 20 mins of the 4 hours we hung out was there no bitching involved. I lost track of time, and finally my brother told me to drive him home, i was relieved. Except when we got to his house, the biggest argument ive ever been in with someone face to face arised. We screamed at each other, and for the first time i let down my guard in front of him. I cried a little, but not as worst as i did when i left. I had to pull over because i couldnt see from crying so hard. For the first time i was the hopeless friend that didnt know waht to do. I called the first person that came up in my head and went showed up at my best friends house. The support i got helped, but ive never been so lost in my entire life .. this boy has made me someone that i dont want to be .. i cant even write the rest of the story . -smug