if these walls could talk they'd probably cry out for mercy

highschool relationships are too complicated for my 16 year old brain to handle. It's like you fight and fight to keep the fire blazing, but its not like im going to marry this guy right?.. sometimes i dont see the point, but neither of us can let this go. Today he got extremely jealous,and got back at me by attempting to make me jealous .. but it just pissed me off, which resulted to me attemping to end it ( referring to kevins blog, Ew i hate my life i just want to end it, or somethign along those lines) haha but it didnt end, because we fought it out AGAIN. I told my good friend about this, and she is trying to set me up with this boy that likes me tommrow. but i cant do it, i really cant, i already made up a great excuse to not go. I'm hopeless in love teenanger
So speeches are fun, everyone hates them, but i dont find them so bad.. im writing my speech on celiac disease, the disease that i have. Im pretty much extremely embarassed to be reading it in front of my class, and my VERY judgemental teacher martin , but hopefulyl everything goes well. Its time that i've accepted it, and told my story. I'm kind of hoping i dont cry, cause its so weird, i cant mention my grandmothers name without crying anymore.. i miss her so much it hurts. She died of stomach cancer if you were wondering what im talking about, and celiac diesease can lead to stomach cancer... any of my blog readers will learn more about it considering all of you are in my class:) haha .. speaking of my english class, i sat at a table today with kevin,mandy and allison. I didnt forget how cool they were, i just missed it terribly. Allison and me were tighter then spandex when we were little and i miss it:( .. me and mandy had a cool friendship in middle school, and unfortunatly things happen at some dance, over a boy i hardly knew, and i was a little intoxicated, and i miss her very much too .. cause friends shouldnt stop talking just cause of a boy:( especially a boy i never knew.. at all . haha and me and kevin, i dont miss him, cause he's always in my hair, and im always in his BFF .. haha :) .. just wanted to shout out to you guys, and how cool you are, and i hope we'll be good friends are a while, cause it was a fun, non productive period haha . ew its 2am , and im not tired.. yet i laid in bed and forced myself outta bed because i remember kevin commented on a blog that he told me about at school, wasnt that excited, still love yah .. anyway BED TIME FINALLY . :) - smug!