Addicted already?

So I found myself waking up today asking myself what I would blog about, interesting huh? haha who knew expressing your life stories to all of my one followers would excite my life a little.But it's a nice feeling to me, haha writing down my life stories, without feeling the pressure to fit in...On here i can be myself, but no one really actually knows who i am. haha love it. Im at work as we speak right now, I probably have one of the easiest jobs ever invented; yet I hate it more and more each day. My boss is an actual bitch, and treats every employee like complete trash; she makes me feel like I’m incapable of anything. They randomly decided to screw me over last week by taking all of my shifts away, now I work one lonely shift a week. Little do they know I love revenge.. as does the rest of the girls that lost shifts. We have an evil plan to completely screw her over and quit on the same day! Karma’s a bitch!
Any of my friends that know me know that I am not the kind of girl to fall for anyone,i close my heart to anyone,im independent and i was planning on keeping it that way for the rest of my highschool life, but along came Tom*. Tom is amazing; everything about him excites me, and scares me all at the same time. It's sadly always been him, every since grade 6 I believe when we had a small fling I have had a strong feeling towards him. He moved in grade 8 and I was completely heartbroken, words can’t even describe how incredibly depressed I actually was. We lost touch, and I felt like I lost my best friend and my lover all in one. Every time I got in a relationship from that point on, it always went back to Tom; his face was always in my mind when I was with other boys. The summer going into grade 11 I got a phone call that basically changed everything. Tom called me out of no where to tell me he was moving home. When I got off the phone, it dropped to the floor and all I could say was, oh my gosh, I was actually speechless and that NEVER happens to me. We quickly caught up on each other’s life, and it felt like he never left and that scared me. Although Tom was everything I ever wanted, I noticed myself holding back, almost scared to open up to him. He left, and I went through so much to get over him... it kind of pissed me off to think that he thinks he can just come back and assume everything the same. I decided I had to tell him what I felt, and I told him that I was not the same girl I was in middle school, I changed and he needed to know that. The day he came home, was one of the most interesting days ive had in a while. My friend and me decided to go to a fortuneteller. The things she told me scared me so bad! She went on about this tall, dark haired boy that i cared for allot in my past, and told me he was coming back not only into my life, but also into my heart. She said that he worked high up in the sky, and thought about me all summer. Tom worked outwest all summer on roofs. I was officially convinced that I still had feelings for tom, and I always will wither he will or not. Tom called me when I got home from the fortuneteller, and he told me he was coming right over... without me even telling him where I lived, he remembered everything. I waited outside for him, cracking my knuckles and grinding my teeth...I waited for that moment for the longest time, and it was actually happening. And then I saw him, my heart completely dropped. There was the boy I fell the hardest for, standing on the end of my driveway, it felt too good to be true. I instantly went up to him without speaking and just hugged him, that hug made it real for me. We hung out for weeks, and it felt right to me, but I was still holding back, and he knew it. When school started, we stopped talking and I wasn’t exactly heartbroken but I was sad.I figured this was what was suppose to happen, everything happens for a reason? I knew he came back, so that I could finally get over him. For me to get completely over him a month after me avoiding him, I had to tell him exactly how I felt & I did ... big time haha. He was shocked and I honestly didn’t expect any response from him. Turned out he felt the same, and two months later, I'm pretty sure I’m basically in love with him. It’s the kind of love where he is my best friend, I learn something new about him everyday and that excites me! The way he looks at me scares the shit out of me, but it also makes me feel loved for once in my life. For once I know EXACTLY how I feel and I’m not gunna let anyone change that. Me and tom* may not be the most exciting couple, or even seem like a couple sometimes, but to me ive never felt more comfortable with someone in my whole life. Who knew the girl, who closed up her heart, would open it up and find something that completes it. love ya world- smugster