it's all coming back to me now ..

Today was pretty bush, slept in(pro) then had my first exam(not so pro) haha. Then i kind of waited around school seeing if any cool people needed drives home. My besties asked me go out for a fat supper, so obviously i had to tag along.. haha. I also had to go to my brothers best friends wake, which was absolutely horrible. One of the hardest things in life, is seeing someone you love laying there and there is nothing anyone can do to prevent it. Horrible, horrible feeling. Then i went down to my friends house to study for tomorrows exam. eulk, actually pretty nervous about it, but oh well haha while we we suppose to be studying, we checked out old old old emails from forever ago, made me realize how frigging old i am. Makes me want to go back and live my middle school life to the fullest haha literally. Found some pretty epic old pics as well .. but nothing beats this email i found from this guy im dating now .. we also dated in middle school , and i found a email from grade 6 saying he is a bad boyfriend to me, so he broke up with me :( haha kind of funny how we are going back out now, like 5 years later. Its hard to believe that he was my first heartbreak and now im back taking chances on him again .. hah love it. I'm kind of depressed about how old i am, and thinking that next year ill be separating from all my besties. I'm with them almost every day, gunna be weird having to make new friends in uni. ugh university stresses me out , i have no idea where i wanna go, or what i wanna be. Courses have basically been chosen for me my whole life and now that the choice is in my hands , its so difficult!! ugh i want to be a nurse, but alot of blood kind of makes my stomach turn, i wanna be a lawyer but i dont believe im smart enough for it plus it takes too long, eulk eulk eulk . Good thing i have my friends to help me. haha my group of friends are pretty darn cool , not gunna lie. We always do cool things together, each one of them has cool things about them. I'm kind of sorta amazed on how we all came from different groups, and are our own group now. They accept me for who i am kind of thing, never felt more comfortable with my weird self. Im outta here to study . love ya world - smug master