i suppose its time for a blog post, but ive been so sick and depressed lately i cant seem to find anything to blog about. I don't think im so cut out for this relationship thing, i think sometimes i care more then i should, and thats what hurts me. Or maybe its just the boy im in the relationship with, who knows. All i know is , im not very good at it. I went to his house yesterday and we just laid in bed, and ended up falling asleep with each other, it was such a comforting feeling when i woke up, being wrapped around the arms of a boy i love very dearly. but we both knew we werent sleeping the whole time, but i felt better just laying there in his arms, as he gently kissed my forehead 3 or 4 times. It was nice, and it felt surreal.
but today just sucked, i woke up and realized i have the flu, and an awful cough. I hate when you cough so much your chest hurts, eulk being sick sucks. And tomorrow is the first day of second semester, i kind of wish i wasnt sick for it, im anxious to start my new classes.
I also have another problem to write about, and drown in my self pity. A boy i once cared about, has come back. And he knows i love my boyfriend, yet he thinks i will just go back to him. Kind of makes me mad to think he can just waltz in and think hes gunna get me back. nope aint gunna happen.... the reason i left that boy was because of my current boyfriend, and theres no way im turning around now. Ive been through too much to just let it all go and if he thinks other wise, hes got something else coming. but im find myself overly obsessed with the song thinking of you .. which is about being with someone, but thinking of your old lover.. "when im with him i am thinking, he kissed my lips i taste your mouth, he pulled me in i was disgusted with myself" eulk , makes me wonder why im so obsessed with the song . :|
Im too sick to write about my life any longer.. off to bed i go . love ya world - smug
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